be still my heart

I love you both so muuuchhhhhh ;_____; Seriously whoever is still reading this blog you can give up now it's just going into a downward spiral of fangirl-ing. 

UGHHHHH SAVE ME SO QT!!!!!

HELLO I'M WATCHING THE RUNNING MAN EPISODE WITH WOOBIN AND JONGSUK OMG I'M SO EXCITED YOU GUYSSSS!!!!

I found the special episode last night but I haven't watched it yet but anyway I'M SO EXCITED FOR THIS RUNNING MAN EPISODE. I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO EXPLODE!!!!!

I am so lame, my life is so lame, omg.

Yay so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Awwww.

I'm at the last episode of School 2013 omggggg. I spent a really long time just now deciding what drama I should watch on the train tomorrow but I didn't think anything could fill up the void that School 2013 will leave :'( I downloaded Secret Garden since it seemed popular at the time so I hope I'll like it!!!

Can't wait to watch the School 2013 special for all the Nam Soon x Heung Soo qtpie moments ahhhhhh :')

P.S. OMG I JUST FINISHED IT OMGGG I FEEL SO EMPTY INSIDE WHAT DO I DO... I wish it wouldn't end and then we can see Heung Soo and Nam Soo grow up and grow old together because they are forever OTP ♥ Sigh I shall watch the special now to nurse the empty hole in my heart :'(

P.P.S. SOB I CAN'T FIND THE SPECIAL ANYWHERE... ;___;

HEUNG SOO AND NAM SOON-AH EVERY EPISODE YOU MAKE MY HEART WEEP AND MELT AT THE SAME TIME I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY FEELINGS ;______;

I'm sorry I don't have twitter so everything just goes here, but then again, sorry I'm not sorry.

P.S. Look I got a picture of my bbs

Hehehe awwww bbs :')

Omg Heung Soo and Nam Soon you are making my heart weep ;____;

I don't think it'll be a very good idea to continue watching the remaining episodes on the way to work because I think I will cry a river.

Omg Heung Soo and Nam Soon please don't cry my bbs omg let me hug you all ;_____;

two sides to a coin

After I finished that ahjussi drama, I moved on to To The Beautiful You and now I'm watching School 2013.  Can't stop won't stop 0.0 It's like I've been hearing too much Korean and now when I hear strangers conversing in Malay or Tamil and sometimes even English I think it's Korean hahahahaha.

After working in this job for only a week, I've come to realize that there are two sides to every job. There will be good things and bad things and no job will ever be perfect even if it's something you love doing. It all depends on how you look at it. Which is why I think it's so important to be a positive person and why I really want to be a positive person too. 

And I submitted my taobao cart!!!!!!! Opted for air shipping impulsively because I didn't want to wait for a month or so to get my items haha oops...

P.S. I mean like, seriously, WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN NAM SOON AND HEUNG SOO OMIGAD?? It's the only freaking reason I keep going from episode to episode and I'm already at 7 (I started watching on Sunday). Somebody needs to stop meeee.

P.P.S. OMIGAD ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE 7 JUST REVEALED WHAT HAPPENED. Poor Heung Soo poor Nam Soon omg let me hug you my bbs ;____;

nothing to see here, move along...

When I grow up I want to be Lisa Eldridge.

Nothing much to update in my life, if I'm not at work then I'm mostly at home watching Korean shows. And my job is the most chill one I've ever held so... Nothing there as well. The most interesting thing in my life right now is waiting for my allowance/pay to come in so I can submit my taobao cart worth $160 (160/15=$10.67/item nubbad) and buy some Korean cosmetics. 

Other than just bumming around, I'm also waiting for a local university to accept my average butt into their schools. I feel like I got placed in the wrong class in Year 1. All of the people I know there are overachievers and have GPAs which are >3.7 and here I am bumbling along with a 3.5 and still pretty content with life. Of course it would be better if my GPA was higher but I've never been one to be very conscientious with work and there's no one to blame but myself so that's alright with me. 

Oh yes, another thing that I like to watch now is CRAYON SHIN CHAN! I love it, why is Shin-chan so hilarious omg.

And I stopped jogging since forever ago, so my jiggliness has come back. I really should try and get back on track though, if not how can I look hot by graduation and June? Lololol shallow goals. I can't wait for June. I'M CALIFORNIA-BOUND! That is, if nothing even worse happens to our family's finances. Ohuhuhu.

OK I think I'm done babbling. Time to sleep! I have work tomorrow 12pm-5pm and I think I will go get some Japanese magazines after work if I'm not lazy!!!

Pretty happy with life at the moment, except I wish there was more time to meet up with friends that I don't get to meet up with often, and that I have more money for going out and shopping online. Hmm let me think of what I can sell/do other than selling my body because lbr, no one is going to buy that shit OHOHOHO.

再见!

CONGRATULATIONS

Mmm, probably should get this printed out by the dozens.

I actually went onto my tumblr to find a ~deep~ and ~meaningful~ image but eh, I like this better.

I'm such a boring person by default it is like hardwired into my DNA to be a boring person. Meh. Doesn't help that I'm a bloody lazy shit.

half empty

I think it's very bad that I'm such a negative person. I have a lot of negative feelings and negative thoughts. Which is why I'm always dreading things, always delaying things, etc. 

I shall research on how to be more positive when I have time.

This just came to my mind because I keep dreading going to work but honestly today (17/3) was only my first day and it was actually fairly okay. I mean, it's a good life compared to my internship/H&M despite the lower pay. In fact I think the positives far outweigh the negatives for this job. My parents were commenting how going to work there is kind of a waste of resources seeing as my transport + food = $10, and the most I get per day working there is $42. 

Eh. I can see why I'm so negative. Hahahaha.

food = happiness

This is probably one of the rare #ootd/#wiwt shots that you will see which was not taken by a camera on a tripod. Hahaha. This was taken on Monday, when KK and I went to Bugis for various reasons. We decided to wear heels because we buy them but we never ever wear them out. And there's a reason for that. I was DYING. Luckily I brought flats out if not I would have cried my way home.

We had dinner at Poulet! I wanted to eat fish soup at Hotspot Cafe actually but I didn't realize they close at 4pm so we had to walk back to Bugis+ and we saw that Poulet was rather crowded so we  decided to eat there as well hahaha we are so Singaporean. 

Anyway, the crowd there is justified! We each had the Poulet Roti. I thought the meat was really tender! The service there was good too. Sorry, am no food critic nor do I aspire to be one so here is my very simple and basic review hahaha.

The next day we met again to go to Chinatown to buy fabric and to Aljunied for my job interview. And after that we went to town to see if any retail shops were hiring.

We had lunch at Din Tai Fung!! Food at DTF is always goooood. I only took photos of my beloved xiao long baos and the mashed red bean dumplings. ♥.♥

Random photo of Cookie aww isn't she such a qt pie agugugu.

I met KK (again) and Keith on Thursday to accompany them to Jurong to send their laptops for repair. It was like visiting a whole new world along the red line bound towards Jurong East hahaha. 

Lunch at Itacho Sushi. This mini rice was seriously mini but it was the only thing I was really pleased about. Everything else I ordered was kind of meh.

After getting caught in the rain while on the way to the Acer service centre and after they sent in their laptops, KK and I decided to go down to Tanjong Katong to try the lok lok buffet!!! We only decided to after we realized there was a straight bus all the way down. We literally went from one side of the country to the other. My ass hurt from sitting for so long on the bus. 

It was quite satisfying although it's a bit different from the lok lok at our school. The lok lok at our school is sooooo good. It's the best thing that ever happened to me in NYP. Hahaha.

We ate a ton of prawns to "cover cost", so I think we're going to get high cholesterol sooner or later in life.

I think from this post it is pretty obvious I am a live to eat person and not a eat to live person. A lot of times when KK and I want to go out it usually revolves around which restaurant we want to eat at. This post is also a clear signal to me to STOP EATING OUT.

best furry friend

My dad and I brought Cookie to the vet today because I've been suspecting that cataracts have formed in her eyes and also because she's been scratching the skin around her eyes lately. My suspicions were confirmed, she does indeed have cataracts and it's not just discoloration of the eyes due to old age. 

Throughout the day we just kept poking fun at her, haha saying that she's going to become a blind old bat next time. My dad had to keep reminding me that she doesn't have long left. Obviously, I'm aware I'm going to outlive my dog but it really hits home when I can see the whites of the cataracts in her eyes. It makes me rather upset. 

I'll admit I'm not the best dog owner around and I don't bring Cookie out for walks and she's often left alone at home a lot of times and I really do feel bad about all of these but I still love her a whole bunch. I got her when I was 12, and this year I would have had her for 9 years already. She's been with me for a really long time. I still remember when I got her, she was such a tiny ball of fur. But even then I also remember neglecting her a lot. I'm a really horrible owner. Probably going to live with this guilt my entire life.

Interesting fact to note is also that when I got her there wasn't really a set intention on getting a dog the day we went out. I'd wanted a dog for for-freaking-ever. I mean every time we had to pray at church I prayed to God for a dog. I had this book which had information about all the dog breeds in the world. I carried it around everywhere I went and memorized it from page to page. That was my true bible hahaha.

Anyway, on the day itself my mom merely wanted us to take a look at the shelter dogs nearby. And as a kid I never considered small breeds because my dad and I were really into large dogs, and we still are. But we popped into the pet farm (ugh I know, so bad but we didn't know any better at the time) and the guy told me that Cookie would be perfect for me. And I actually told him I wanted the bigger puppy in the next cage. It was a boy and when he placed it in my arms it was so jumpy so he gave me Cookie and I fell in love. She just lay in my arms really quietly and that was IT. I had to have her.

When I brought her home, we were so unprepared for a puppy that my parents gave me this plastic crate they used to put stuff in for her to sleep in. I put a cloth and everything for her and for about 4 or 5 hours I just sat next to the crate while she slept and I just read all my books about puppies and dogs. When she woke up, I fed her water in those plastic takeaway containers. And when I realized that she peed in the crate I carefully lifted her out of the crate and quickly and diligently washed it because I was scared she'd run around the house. Instead she just lurked behind the wall of my toilet and peered at me while I washed the crate. My parents managed to get a pen from a friend and we had to leave her in it for the night. The next morning when I woke up my 12 year old self could not believe a puppy was sitting in the kitchen waiting for me. 

Anyway. Safe to say there's been a whole 9 years of her waiting patiently for every one of us in the family to come home every day of her life. No matter what time we got back, be it at 6pm or 5am, she would always there to welcome us home. Even when I get up in the mornings she always looks happy to see me. I think with every major event that would occur in my life, before I left the house I'd always grab her face and told her to wish me luck. She's been with me for a lot of things, and it makes me really sad that she won't be around for a whole lot of other stuff. 

I'm really blessed to have her as my first dog. She has such a good-nature and even though we've never brought her for any obedience training classes she's mostly obedient and sweet. My dad likes to disturb her a lot and she rarely loses her temper at him. I mean, he likes to snatch her food away while she's eating and not once has she growled at him in anger. She actually just stares at him stupidly and expectantly waiting for him to put the bowl down. I mean, look at that picture. She lets me do stupid shit to her all the time and even though she always displays a look of mild annoyance (DON'T SAY THAT DOGS CAN'T DISPLAY EMOTIONS!!!!) she never snaps at me and just lets me put stuff on her head/body.

I love Cookie so much I really don't know how I'll deal with it when it's time for her to go.

I don't know what's the point of this post. But it made me feel very blue. :(

practice what you preach

Additionally, the current state in which the way media perpetuates an “ideal” that women should strive to achieve for is dismal. Girls from a young age are brainwashed into thinking that only with pretty faces and thin bodies will they deserve good things and success in work and love.

Trying to write up my business proposal. If I believed the garbage I was spewing I would be a much happier person, lol.

17 year old me

WOAH WTF LOL I LOOK SO YOUNG I WANT TO TURN BACK TIME!!!!!!! I think this was in 2009 hahaha woahhhhhh. Trying to look for this flickr account which had photos which showed my hair in various states, damn it why do I have so many accounts for every damn website there is.

Also, how tan was I?!! I don't know what am I doing with the Pez dispensers, forgive me. I was a 17 year old who made bad decisions. Now I am a 21 year old. Who makes bad decisions.

/ I CAN'T FIND THAT FLICKR ACCOUNT I AM SO UPSET!!! But I found these:

Lololol this was at 18. Retarded forever.

feel lucky

I told myself to pack my room immediately after exams ended yet it's been almost 3 weeks but my room still looks like a squatter's hole. I am leading the most boring life ever right now. I emailed to make an inquiry about a job, so hopefully they're hiring. I wasn't very keen on getting a job because I just want to sloth around and do nothing but my desire to shop is stronger than my desire to vegetate so there you go. In other boring news you don't really need to know, I jogged for 6 consecutive days last week and then I stopped after Wednesday because my knees really hurt after clubbing hahaha wtf. My body is really in the worst condition ever. 

It strikes me how fast I get over crushes. I think it's the only redeeming quality about myself that I like hahaha. I mean, I still harbour feelings which are along the lines of "fuck him!!!!", etc. but honestly when I think about it or come across things that remind me of the guy I mostly just feel surprised I liked him for close to a year and I got rid of that crush within 5 days. May I have all the applause please. But then again if I think about it carefully, does that mean all of my crushes are largely superficial or are all crushes just superficial? 

Either way, I like the way I feel now. Life is uneventful but it's rather peaceful and that's great.

I just don't want to pack my room you guys.

Here are some pictures just because I can:

Hehe on my birthday last year I don't know what's the last picture but damn all my friends have really nice legs.

I kind of miss school but I think the moment you put me back to classes I'll hate it so... I just like how pleased I look in the last picture hahaha although I also look retarded. My eyes are so small and tiny :(

life of a nerd without a social life

I just finished all 20 episodes of A Gentleman's Dignity since I started watching it LAST NIGHT. Kuen Kuen and I were supposed to meet yesterday but we went to sleep at 5am because we were watching our dramas so when I got up at 11am I told her let's not meet. Hahaha. And she's watching some Taiwanese dramas and I am not here for that.

Anyway, ALL MY FEELS FOR THIS SHOW!!! ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ

Initially, I just started watching it because of CNBLUE's Jonghyun because he was a qtpie in Running Man, but throughout the show it switched to OMG AHJUSSI SO QTPIE!!!!!! The show centers around four men in their forties, hence I keep calling them as ahjussi when I gush about them, lol. I got annoyed at the first episode and I thought it was going to suck but I really enjoyed it  and there were lots of funny parts.

JANG DONG GUN AHJUSSI HAS GOT THE BEST PUPPY EYES SCHTICK DOWN.

I died. At this scene. From the car all the way to the washroom. If you know what I'm talking about let's meet and discuss our feels.

 

 

LOOK AT THESE QT AHJUSSI. (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

 

  AND THIS COUPLE GAVE ME ALL THE FEELS ALTHOUGH IT BORDERED ON TWILIGHT IMPRINTING LEVELS OF CREEPY. (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

Okay I'm done. I need to shower and sleep seeing as I haven't slept since in close to 20 hours. I can't watch Korean dramas or any kind of drama shows where it's only 20+ episodes long. I just rush through all of them as though the world is going to end the next day and I end up stuck to my laptop and not doing anything else. 

eat that up, it's good for you

On the 27th I met up with some of the boys and Kuen Kuen to visit Mary Clare at the hospital! She had to undergo surgery for her left leg. As usual, KK and I were late — but with good intentions! We went to Changi City Point to get her cupcakes from Twelve Cupcakes. I also bought a salted caramel and red velvet cupcake for myself hahaha fattie is me. Then we made our way to Simei to meet the rest and then off to CGH we went!

I don't know why I look so radiant in this photo but I like it. My outfit that day looked like a school uniform I don't know what I was thinking. Also, I don't know what was on the strap of my bag but it left a whole bunch of black marks on my shirt which luckily, were easy to come off. My hair looks so flat in this picture the more I look at it aghhhh I want to do something to my hair!!! It's either my hair is too flat or my face is too big, or both??

Jerron looks like a pervert here. Besting Kevin at looking like a pervert is no small feat hmmmmm.

I don't know why my friend is like that ;___; She didn't want to sit down and she kept resting her entire body on her crutches. So JM went to steal someone's wheelchair thinking it was unoccupied hahahaha.

MC called this male nurse to help us with the photo and she was all, "Hey bro!" And we were all :O I don't understand why Jerron cannot smile in any photo. 

After visiting MC we took a bus down to Joo Chiat for lunch!!! That day was just an opportunity for all of us non-east siders to explore the east side of Singapore hahaha. 

~*~Tribute to JM's Ronald McDonald shoes~*~

We had lunch at EWF. It was my first time eating there! I know, even when they have an outlet in town. I shared the One Egg Soup with KK and my main was errm, I think it was called Creamy Salmon in a Cup. It was okay, the salmon was very tender!! I couldn't finish my fries :(

After lunch and after walking around I12 Katong (idk what is up with the name) aimlessly we decided to take another bus down to town because we didn't know what to do. We got off near Dhoby Ghaut so we decided to head to Plaza Singapura.

Pretty shirts at Uniqlo are pretty and I want them all.

There was this exhibition at the atrium of Plaza Singapura called Hello Shibuya Tokyo showcasing Japanese brands. The clothes were... Not my kinda thing but we came across these felted animal brooches! They look so realistic and look at the hamster hair tie!! We later realized they cost around $100 each so we slowly edged away from the booth hahaha.

Wow, I haven't done one of these "let's talk about my day" posts in a long while. I'm so used to typing about all my ~emotions~ and ~feelings~ instead hahaha. The post title is simply because I really like the song by Two Door Cinema Club. It gives me happy feelings!