Birds and bees

Today was the last day for Open House! Sales was surprisingly good. Tomorrow I have a test which I haven't studied for, and I have a report submission due this Friday. All the best to me. 

Not trying to be poetic or anything, but I realize, crushes are like seeds. You plant your seed when you start feeling attracted to a person, and you water it everyday and hope it grows up well and strong. There are also several factors which affect the seed's growth - time, effort, etc. 

Your seed could grow into weeds, where the other party, or you, decide that your crush is undesirable, or bad, and needs to be removed.  Or, crushes that are just passing phases are just seeds that slowly wither and die with passing time.

Likewise, your seed could bloom into a flower. Sweet-smelling, beautiful, but has a fleeting lifespan. Flowers last through a season, and then wither off and die. Relationships like flowers are crushes which were lucky enough to blossom into something more than a crush, but weren't meant to last. However, it was still lovely when you had it.

Some seeds may eventually grow into trees. Trees are sturdy, have long lifespans, and are able to withstand several seasons. Trees aren't easy to come by from seeds, and if they do grow, are hard to nurture. I guess most people seek to have relationships like trees, but growing a tree requires a challenging and large amount of effort and time. However, trees do get chopped down, or fall during storms.

Of course there are different types of seeds, seedlings, small flowers, large flowers, oak trees, bonsai trees, etc, hahaha.

I wish I could write this out better and less haphazardly. I think my standard of writing has dropped :( I need to start reading more books again. 

Y'know, I always begin feeling happy, happy, happy till it hits a peak where I think things are going so well, and then my mood drops right down till I can't even stop the bad feelings from snowballing. It happens all the time and I wish I knew how to do something about it. Maybe I just expect too much and think too much.