happy sloths are happy

Currently feeling so stressed. Not because of studying. 

Ever since pumping in an amount of money I have never even saved before in my life into FP I spend at least 40% of my waking hours thinking of what I can do to improve things. (40% because currently there are more pressing matters like school stuff, so.) And every time I see a blogger posting a new advert on a new/existing web store a little part of me dies. 

I come across web stores I've never heard of before and they already have about 1k likes on their Facebook page. I did a little bit of researching and some have 3k likes, 8k likes. I know I've only just started but there is just SO much to do and improve on but I am only a 20 year old student who has spent 101% of her allowance every time it comes in so financial issues are really stressing the fuck out of me. There are just so many things for me to learn, to improve on, and I am just so unsure of whether I can accomplish them.

I have so many big dreams for this little business and I'm so afraid that it will all end up as a failure. I have SO many things I want to implement to make things better I've started jotting down ideas in case I forget them.

I just don't know how I'll be able to reach that level when the market is already so saturated and there are still more and more web stores popping up by the day.

I love it though. I love looking at other stores, getting inspiration from the usual suspects; Nasty Gal, F21, Topshop, etc., finding new sources of inspiration. I love the entire process... Sourcing for items, getting the items, styling the shoots, not so much of editing the images and coding the pages... But I love being able to see the final results, I love dreaming of all the ideas I want to execute, and the thought of it all coming together in the future... 

I can safely say that I would gladly dedicate everything to making sure this little sprout of a business grows into a strong tree. But it's just such a daunting task to try to rise up and try to achieve even a moderate amount of success and I am so scared of this journey. 

Worried.